I've finally feel tired..

I feel so tired today after workout.
But i feel nice when i see my progress and proud of myself.

Today is my first day of Anabolic Testing. It will take 30 days to prove whether this product actually works on me.

Have to be hardcore training for this month. No skipping workout no matter what.
Besides that , hope karate lesson wouldnt slow down my progress.


Strive for the best.. Jon

Improving myself in different ways

It's been a tiring day for me and for the first time i skipped my workout. Haha.
I've joined Goshin-Ryu Karate do club in UTM as a beginner. I just wanted to learn some martial arts to enhance my qualities.

Do i really able to handle all these ? it's time to prove it.
I have not been giving up on building my body and now it has succeed somehow. I guess i could do the same on Karate-do too. I wish i could finish my final year with a black belt. But that's quite impossible no matter how talented i am.

My plan of building up my body would be 2 years time , now has already passed 6 months.
I'm so anxious about having a photo shoot of my body by professionals.

No photo of my body now would be publish to any social network sites. =)
All i can say is that determination and dedication towards something will grant u valuable rewards. Rewards that you will never regret having it.

Unexpected Incident

I failed myself as a human in being rational and wise.
I thought i had given my best to people around me to be a respectful person to them.

But i'm wrong. Things act so differently here in Johor . I've finally understand why i got a B+ for my English last Semester.

I always thought i have bunch of good friends here until i'm told about something from someone. I've never thought of i'm so hateful to them. I always help them whenever they need me. But when things turns up , they doesn't wants to help.

Lately , i got to know what had happened on previous semester. All of them was planning to drop me behind without telling me the registration code for those subjects. In this way , they can abandon me from them.

I couldn't react like there was nothing happened at all. I can never treat them the way i used to be anymore. I'm more prefer to be alone now , i doesnt wants to relate my 'friends' with me.

I can prove that without them , i'm still Jon Le. They seems to forget me bit by bit , perhaps i should too.

Unfortunately , one more step .

I have no idea why my english lecturer gave me B+ as some of my friends english level far more worst than mine got an A. Since it is the fact now , i'll just accept it.

That cost me one more step to grant First Class Honor. 0.01 cgpa to go . I'll strive hard for the next 2 semesters.

CGPA 3.87 could be a good grade , but ain't what i hope for.

Here is where i work.

I've grown up ,but it hurts.

In the serve of found and lost , everyone will learn something new from it. I'm no excluded indeed. I used to owned something i love very much but too bad i've lost it somehow and somewhere.

I know i had grown up , that i can accept my loss. I lost not because of anyone , i could just blame myself for not having enough courage to act than enough courage to think. I've think too much of the future and things havent occurred yet. There's something needs action rather than imagination i missed it.

So , i've lost and found something...I would lifted it up , i could lifted it down.


Still the same old me with a newer mindset. (Phew~ lucky i still have my muscles sticking to my bones)

My Past

I'm a good child to both of my parents , but i used to give them a lot sadness and disappointment.
I still remember so clearly when i was in Standard 2 . I failed my Bahasa Melayu caused i forgotten to do 1 whole page. I got scolded my dad so badly. Move on to UPSR , thanks to my 3rd Brother gave me tuition and save me. A good result but it wasn't qualified for me to enter HIgh School.
My parents went here and there , trying to get their youngest son into famous High School. They feel disappointed , why 3 of his 4 sons , doesn't give them worries.

They take a lot bus trips traveling from Bkt.Mertajam to Jabatan pendidikan on Penang island under hot sun. They're sweating but they ain't give me up. I take that for granted that time. I didnt notice their sacrfices , and yet i hate dad for scolding me.

There's a good point , my mum never scold me. Thats why i doesnt scare her and i love her. Finally , i got to enter HSBM. I didnt appreciate my parents hard work and result in i did so badly in my PMR and SPM exams.

My mum so sad when i first got my SPM result. My dad disappointed in me. I always blame that i don have warmth in my family , perhaps i'm the one who doesnt wanted to feel the warmth.

My dad wants me to enter Form 6 , so i did. For the first year , i hate studies and the result is so bad. Thus , my parents often argue about me. In about 8 months before STPM, i decided to make a change. I don wan to see my mum cry again.

Well , i studied hard . I scored even better in my second account test , (33/100) than in Test 1. I realise i'm able to do something. I keep on working hard. I finally passed and scored at (56/100). I always seek advices from a friend who always first in the class. I still thank him so much for giving me free tuition 3 months before STPM.

STPM result finally releases.. I opened up the letter and called back home. I told my dad , i got 3B and a C. He heard 3D 1C. He hung up. I didnt thought of he heard wrong. So i went back home , saw his angry face and said " Show me your Result!" . When i showed him , he saw 3 B and 1 c. He asked me whose result is that. =.=....

My mum cried as she didnt believe it at all. I feel so satisfied and i finally understand all the scoldings and lecture from parents was all for me. And i'm so grateful to get an offer letter from UTM.

After i entered UTM , i took things for granted again. I think i'm clever caused i'm in a Uni. So i just work as hard as i worked in STPM. The semester i only scored 3.2 cgpa. In the semester break , i helped my mum sell nasi lemak . I see her tired , wrinkled face , and her hand full of wrinkles. I know she is getting old. Sometimes i wonder what for she have to work so hard now? She works all just to maintain the family and aid her children in monetary in case they need them.

I've understand all these , i decided to work hard to grant my parents a good lifestyle. I scored 3.81 CGPA in Sem 2 and 3.67 in Sem 3 .
And Sem 4 result is coming out soon , i honestly have tried my best to achieve best results.

I always remind myself with this story , just to remind myself how lucky i am to have such good parents. I should be grateful too that i'm blessed with perfect family.

Wo Hai Xiang Ta - Lin Jun Jie

Nice Song by JJ Lin. His latest Album . The MV quite good but not touching enough.

lei shui
jiang wo yan mo
dao di shei gai nan guo
jiu jing
shi shei fang diao
zhe duan gan qing
wo cai zhong yu ming bai
ban bu dao de cheng nuo
jiu cheng le jia suo
xian shi zhong xing fu yong yuan que huo

qing gao su ta
wo bu ai ta
xiao zhe nan guo
zi wo cheng fa
xiang zhong zhi zhe yi qie zheng zha
heng le xin
shuo zhen xin huang hua

bie gao su ta
wo hai xiang ta
hen zong bi ai rong yi fang xia
dang lei shui du zhu le xiong kou
jiu rang chen mo
dai ti suo you hui da

wo cai zhong yu ming bai
ban bu dao de cheng nuo
jiu cheng le jia suo
xian shi zhong xing fu yong yuan que huo

qing gao su ta
wo bu ai ta
xiao zhe nan guo
zi wo cheng fa
xiang zhong zhi zhe yi qie zheng zha heng le xin
shuo zhen xin huang hua

bie gao su ta
wo hai xiang ta
hen zong bi ai rong yi fang xia
dang lei shui du zhu le xiong kou
jiu rang chen mo
dai ti suo you hui da

wo bu ai
wo bu tong
wo bu dong
wo de xin
zao yi tao kong
zhen xin hua
yan bu you zhong

qing gao su ta
wo bu ai ta
xiao zhe nan guo
zi wo cheng fa
xiang zhong zhi zhe yi qie zheng zha heng le xin
shuo zhen xin huang hua

bie gao su ta
wo hai xiang ta
hen zong bi ai rong yi fang xia
dang lei shui du zhu le xiong kou
jiu rang chen mo
dai ti suo you hui da

bie gao su ta
wo hai xiang ta
jiu rang chen mo
dai ti suo you hui da

It's been a nice moments

I just love Penang so much , Friends there are so .. just nice and thats all.
I organized a trip to Lost world of tambun in Ipoh , the plan included Roy , Tong , Calv , Kok , Shea , KS , Soo and me. Too bad Calv and Kok couldnt make it , otherwise it will be more fun .

Well , We continued our plan with 6ppl left. Well honestly , the place is sucks but having fun with good friends is great.
The best thing happened in Ipoh is the Food , especially the original White coffee. Shea even brought us to famous " Nga choi Kai" . The serving time very surprising which is very very very fast. Within minutes after we ordered , everything served.

It is a tired trip but worth it. All of us reached home around 11pm on the same day.